Growing up in the hood was something I prided myself on. Especially as I became educated, I felt like I made it until I realized how vital wisdom was then just gaining knowledge. When I became a teacher, I truly noticed that most information I needed to truly succeed was being withheld so that I didn't succeed more than those who didn't look like me. I was the first in my intermediate family to not only graduate high school, but college as well. So the world I was stepping into was foreign to me and I wasn't prepared for the amount of hurdles I would face when entering college and the workforce. Once I got my first job as a teacher I quickly realized that I was a little fish in a big pond and that many people purposely withheld information to hinder me from becoming more successful than them. What haunted me the most was that people who thought I was ignorant in regards to book knowledge only accepted me if they could one up me intellectually.
My biggest mistake was I didn't play dumb nor did I dumb myself down. I felt like I had to make it known that I was just as intelligent and aware of the information that they shared or "taught" me. This eventually made me a huge target for bullying because not only was I young, new to the field, and empathic, but I was an African American woman. Sadly, I didn't pick up on what these people were doing to me until I spent more time alone and grew closer to God. I eventually realized that the people who realized my gifts before I did became obsessed with me and how I made what I knew look easy.
So I not only had to battle the day to day struggles and stress of being in the workforce, but I had to overcome workplace bullies who made me their daily target and ridicule. They quickly realized I didn't desire to be a part of their clique and this in my mind made them intimated by me and dare I say rejected. Although I face much hardship in these workplace environments, I fought daily to maintain equilibrium so as to not show that I was weak, which I wasn't. I eventually realized that I was dealing with narcissists who needed to project their insecurities onto me while also trying to deem my light and mimic my character. I did forget to mention that as a teacher, I was loved by my students and families as well as students in the school.
So this drew attention to me that I honestly didn't care to receive. I was just being me which is authentic, kind, loving, and patient. Once I realized that this not only attracted "light" but “darkness" too. I had to become aware of my surroundings and the people I allowed to be in my circle. This is because my enemies became smart, they tried taunting me though sending people who disguised themselves as my friend but really were my foes. So, in my opinion, wisdom is greater than knowledge because once I understood the structure and the strategies they used to oppose me, I used my wisdom to abort their mission to derail me off my path.
I would love to say this made it easier for me, but it didn't. It actually made them become even more enraged resorting to witchcraft to monitor me. At first I didn't realize what was happening to me until I spent even more time alone with God and recognized that these individuals were sending demonic attacks to physically take me out. However, because I serve an all knowing God, He protected me while allowing me to see how wicked some of these people were in the workplace, educational institutions, and churches. The more I trusted my instincts the more I was able to recognize patterns in people who would eventually betray me.
It’s like my spirit knew something would occur before it manifested physically. Since I started to recognize these patterns and trust my gut, I spared my life on numerous occasions and I thank God that I listened. It's like these people have a tell and this is why being attentive and listening more than we speak is a life saver. For instance, James, a disciple of Jesus said this “My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone, should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry.” (James 1:19, NIV). Once I realized how information was gained from me through speaking too soon or allowing their attacks to make me angry in order to gain my energy I had to flip the script.
I noticed I was dealing with low vibrational and insecure people who need their flying monkeys to validate them. I knew I was more powerful. Further, I want you to realize that if you are experiencing what I am experiencing that you are not alone. Don’t allow these people who are targeting you to silence you while attempting to steal your joy, peace and creativity. If we form a community who stand together and break the barrier they try to entrap us with, which is isolation, we can overcome evil with good.
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